I started this blog a few years ago because I believe that we are each called to be disciples.

To follow Jesus in our daily lives where ever we are.

To love one another, everyone, as God loves us.

And, I wanted to share that with all of you.

For a time, I've been really busy with the demands of life, work and school. Creating took a back seat to my other endeavors. Suddenly, with our lives turn upside down, I have so many things to share with you. I hope you'll join me here again as we continue our disciple journey together.

Rainy days and rainbows

Some of you might have seen my Facebook post in the last few days about my experience driving in Northeast Kansas. When I’m driving alone, I like to turn on Christian music and usually I start singing along but at some point my songs turn into prayers and I begin to tell God about my day, my joys and my concerns. 

Friday was one of those days. It was raining as I drove north of Topeka into the vast expanse where Kansas meets Nebraska and you don't always know where you are. 

I was singing along, praying and praising God lifting up my anxious heart, 

asking Him to help me to 

Be Still 

and know Him. 

As I prayed, the rain began to slow and I rounded a curve to behold the most magnificent rainbow I’ve ever seen. The colors were so brilliant I had to stop right there in the road and take pictures.

It was as if God wanted me to know right then 
                                                                     
                       at that very moment 

He heard me. 

Grace and goodness

I find myself reflecting on God's grace. He is so good to me even when I don't deserve it. Let's face it I can't ever deserve it. That's the thing about grace.

It's not about me.

It's about my God and His goodness.

He is so good that His grace washes over me like a flood cleansing my undeserving heart making me worthy of His unfailing love.

In between

Lately, I've been living an in between life. In between the job I want and the job I have. In between a House Hunters dream and my upstairs neighbor. In between my heart's desire and what the heck I am I doing here.

It's been almost two years in between and my patience is wearing thin.

God, what's your plan for me? You know I need a plan.

Lord, please help me.

Remind me to

Be Still and Know

that YOU are the God of my in between.

I really don't need to know the plan. I just need to trust you.

 

Compassion

When I joined Disciple Bible study last fall, I desperately wanted to understand God's call in my life.  As we journeyed through the Bible, I kept a journal of my aha-moments so I could discover what God had in store for me.  Looking back over the things that I wrote, one thing is very clear.  

Disciples are called to take care of one another. 


Exodus 23 says  ...and they cry out to me, I will certainly hear their cry. ²⁷...When they cry out to me, I will hear, for I am compassionate."


I will hear their cries.  I am compassionate.  Those words convict me.  Have I really taken the focus off me even for a few minutes to focus on someone else?  Do I hear the cries of those in need?  Or, do I change the channel when the pictures cut a little too close to my heart?   


I re-read the words of Exodus and search my own heart.  

I am compassionate. 

How can I make those words true?  

Time Warp

Somewhere in my mother's house exists a worn picture of an awkward little girl sitting cross legged on a picnic table squinting into the late summer sun.

Pale skin, freckles, reddish hair and a toothy grin. She was a mess and for years I was embarrassed by her image.

But now, with time and grace tempered compassion, all I want to do is to scoop her up and hug her tight. Try to squeeze in a little love and courage she'll need for the things to come.

She didn't know that she was strong and brave.

Or smart and a natural leader.

She didn't know that the very things she despised about her looks made her unique and pretty.

She didn't know that SHE WAS NOT FAT!

How I wish I could just love her a little more and whisper gently to her...

It will be ok.

It will be amazing.

Exciting News!

I have finally rejoined the computing world. All the partial posts I've started on my tiny iphone will soon come to life and find their way to publication. Oh how I've missed you normal size keyboard.

Look for more soon!